Day to Day ||Short Story

He plugged in his headphones to his phone and pressed play. The music began to blare into his ears. He put on his slip-on vans and walked out the door. He took his keys from his pocket. “I’ll see you guys later.” He said to his roommates. He opened the door and walked out.

~

She opened her eyes and stared at the ceiling. She hated waking up. Her room was always cold and she slept in skimpy pajamas. “Why must she do this to herself” she thought to herself every morning. She tore the blankets from her skin and slowly got out of bed. Her blackout curtains made it impossible to see. She made her way to the window and opened the curtains.

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My Situation with College

Recently, I discovered that I hate continuing my education. It’s gotten to the point of me choosing not to do my homework (except for some things) until the end of the term. I know this won’t come with any consequences. I am 95% sure that I will not go back to school after my break. 

Not because I hate doing my homework, or something. School just isn’t for me, anymore. I originally wanted to get a certificate in Web Design, but the classes I’ve been taking made me realize how that’s not for me at all. With my new found knowledge, I want to take my career path in a different direction. 

My friend recently talked about how he hates what he’s going to school for, but he still wants to further his education. So he’ll be talking to his adviser about changing his program. He said that I should wait until the end of my break to see if I still want to go to school (something I already knew but oh well lol). During my break, I’ll be working on what I want to do if I don’t go back to school: Board Game Development. 

I’ve wanted to create a board game for almost 2 years now. I’ve had multiple ideas for some, but I’ve really only stuck through one. My current one, actually. It’s very similar to the game Werewolf/Mafia, but with my ideas shoved in. I will eventually tell you guys about it, but I’m not ready to introduce it.

And now, here I am, stuck in limbo until school ends on the 8th. I really can’t wait, and I’m so so SO excited to not have school for almost four months. I’m ready for the relief of stress to engulf me. I’m ready to pick up my shattered brain from the floor. 

It’s finally time for me to stop wondering what I’ll do in my life, and now to actually do what I want.

-Caitie

Changing My Ways For Real This Time #1

I decided to change my life. I’m diving into making myself better. For real this time.

I have always dealt with an amount of sadness deep into my core. I’ve lived a pretty rough life so far, and that sadness has amounted to weighing me down. I always feel that the world is on my shoulders, like “If I screw this up, everyone around me will fall too.” I’m ready for this to stop.

My ex-boyfriend and I have been broken up since July. As I write this it’s his birthday. He and I are still friends, it feels better to just be friends too. But he and I were each other’s support systems during our relationship and now he’s struggling with depression. He’s currently taking anti-depressants. I want that, but not through medication. I want to rewire my brain without that help. I want to talk my feelings out of me, while I change my daily habits. If my habits changed, I really believe my thoughts will change.

The first thing I will be changing is stress.  Anything that stresses me, I will work on. The first item on the list is school. I decided to take Winter term off of school, maybe even Spring. During this break, I’ll be working at my job, developing my board game, and cleaning up my life. Smashing out those unnecessary things, like donating some books I don’t want anymore.

This stress also happens because of my laziness. I will be working on my diet and slowly start working out. It’s not something high on my priority list, but I want to live a little bit healthier.

So, at the start of December, I will be finally changing my habits.

-Caitie

When My Worlds Collide

I know I’ve been lacking in posts these past few month(or in general really lol). School has been kicking my butt. Sorry, yall. Hopefully this post will do something for you.

These past three years, I’ve been so secretive with my hobbies. Blogging, crafting, smoking weed (that’s the newest hobby). I’m ready to come out of the fog and introduce you guys to my true life.

When I made this blog, it was just to complain, but then it grew into something else… Something that I can be okay with.

I don’t know a lot of things about myself, and because I’m 20, now, I really think it’s time to go on that journey.

My name is Caitlynne. I live in Oregon, USA. I want to start a board game company. I’m in college studying for web design. I love sweaters, ferrets, manga, anime, and cute things. I’m the type of person who needs to have someone around, whether it be a friend or a relationship.

I have social media that you can follow if you want.

Snapchat- redditmonster

Twitter- watrslooth
Here’s hope that we can restart as being my truest self

-Caitlynne

A Long Overdue Post About How I Suck

Oh boy!  Almost a month without a post from me. Have you guys ever seen that from me? well, technically when I first started blogging I left off for a month so oh well.

So, as you can see the title, I have many reasons to say why I suck and what I suck at.  And when I say I suck, I’m not actually trying to hate myself, I’m just being self-deprecating

1. My Diet

A couple of months ago, I posted something related to how I was going to get healthy and stuff.
I never even started exercising. That was such an easy thing to do for me

ps that was sarcasm
So here I am, sitting in my room with garbage and clothes everywhere.

2. My Messy Room

I’d show you, but that’s a no from me.
I moved here In August. I still don’t have my bookshelf from my ex, and my desk broke when I moved so, I’m still using my computer on my dresser, which has gotten incredibly annoying. I bought a PS4 last week and I planned to put it and my TV on my dresser while my computer sat on my desk.

Apparently, life wants to fuck me with a fork

3. My Car Has Problems

So, just in general my cars lots of issues. Sparkplugs, air filter, a new seal for my sunroof, there’s a short in my hazards, my window switch needs to be replaced… I feel like I can go on lol.

I guess those are some reasons why I SUCK at being human sometimes.

I love you all and I hope to get another post out because I’ve been really busy with school and work. My next post may not even be up for another couple weeks.

Oh well. I hope you have a good day!

-Caitlynne

Problems In My Life| Rant

Today’s post will definitely be a rant. Just a good old rant about things in my life that I hate right now. Fate is not on my side and oh boy is my side troublesome.

Love

I’m not looking to date just yet. It hasn’t even hit 2 months since my ex and I broke up. I’m okay with being single for a while. It’s been hard to adjust back to the regular attention that I get from the people in my life without the attention of a SO. Yeah, I’ve been lonely and need some attention. I just want the love aspect of a relationship without the boy to bog me down. Don’t even get me started on my sex life.

 

Car

So, the thing with my car has been a rollercoaster of a ride. I’ve driven since then ONCE. My car has needed work, so my family and I have been getting it sorted out, but my aunt needs to find the title to the car before I can legally start driving it. I need to go to the DEQ and replace the tags, and I need a title change. I’ve had car insurance on it for a week now. I’m getting tired of asking people for rides to places. I will definitely need it before next week. I start classes then and if I’m still asking for rides, I will be pissed off.

My Room

So, a week or two ago, I said in a post that my room was a mess. Well, it still is. I still need a new desk and I need my bookshelf from my ex. I asked him recently when his dad could take it off the wall, he just responds with “I don’t know” or “I’m not sure”

 

Honestly, my life is a trash fire right now and I just needed to rant

-Caitlynne

The Fate: Part 2

The world brightened as the Fate woke up. Her eyes fluttered opened. She woke up to see herself tied to a dining chair. What? She looked for the girl that hit her. She was sitting at the Fate’s desk, trying to match herself with someone. “Why won’t it work?” she yelled. “Because that’s not how it works.” The Fate spoke. The girl frantically turned around “How does it work, then? I need to do this.” “You’re trying to match yourself with your ex, aren’t you? How did you get here anyway?” “He and I didn’t date, I just need to do this for his sake.” she said as she avoided the Fate’s second question. “Why? Is he dying? Can you not live without him?” “His fiance is a manipulative bitch and he’s marrying her tomorrow.” The girl said, staring at the computer screen. “Sucks. If they’re meant to be, I’ll see to it. Now, can you untie me, so I can check?” The Fate finished as the girl turned to face her again. The Fate smiled innocently as she gestured to her hands with her head. The girl sighed and stood up. She walked over to the Fate. She untied the rope from the hands and feet of the Fate. “Okay, let’s look at his profile. What’s his name?” The Fate sat at her desk. “Devin Torrence.” The girl hovered above the Fate. The Fate typed in his name. “So, he’s engaged to Beatrice O’Leary- oof their relationship is not the smoothest. How did they even get engaged?” The Fate looked into their profiles. “She’s horrible to everyone except him. His friends all hate her, he just refuses to see it.” “Well, how are you in his life?” The Fate turned around and asked. The girl froze. “I- well… We’ve been friends for a long time.” The Fate turned back around.’

“So, you’re Julia Vendes?” “How’d you find out?” “I have connections, you know.”

The Fate: Part 1

The lonely fate sat at her desk, matching couples before she left for her morning jog. She began to hum one of her favorite songs to cure the little boredom that built up. She loved her job, she wanted to do this for eternities. Lucky for her, she did. She matched one last couple and stood up from her desk. She changed into her exercise clothes and left for her jog.

The fate came back sweaty and out of breath. She kicked off her shoes and started undressing to bathe herself. As she walked past her desk, she noticed that the last couple she matched, unmatched. What is this? She thought to herself. This is the first time since I started that this has happened. Maybe one of them died. The fate pulled out the handbook of her fate duties. She opened it to the end of the book, looking through the index. If I don’t find it here, may as well talk to one of the other fates. She turned the pages of the book to the page reading “Couples That Unmatch.” She began to read. “Couples that unmatch from each other represents one of them suddenly dies. If they had been matched for an extended period of time represents them drifting away from each other and they do not have matches for the rest of their lives. You may rematch them if you take pity on them.” The fate closed the book. “Hm.” She looked back at the couple. The cut in their match looked nothing like her fate scissors. She opened her desk drawer and held onto the scissors that were born into her hands. The gold and red scissors shined in the light as she compared the cut with the scissors. “No fate did this.” She tossed them back into the drawer and signed. She decided to wait until after her shower and left her desk. She walked into her room. The fate opened her closet to grab some clean clothes. Out of the blue, someone grabbed her from behind. “Wha-.” She tried to say as her mouth was covered. “Listen to me and listen good. I refuse to be matched by someone who will push me back with that psychopath. If I’m getting matched by someone, it’ll be me.” Suddenly her world turned to pitch black.

My Room is a Pigsty || Life Adventures

The end of August really went by slowly for me, not gonna lie. I felt like all I was doing was sitting around at my house or at work. Which funny enough, is really only what I do.

Lately, when I go to hang out with people I watch anime (which has been going on for a long time) or playing DnD with some friends.

When I moved out of my ex’s house, my desk broke. So, right now I am just using my dresser as a desk. Here’s a lil peek 20180902_1031098622225387059775497.jpg

Bleugh picture I know. I just took it.

But since my desk broke, I’m looking for another desk, but I need to take measurements of where it’ll be going but I’ve been busy stressing about life. It doesn’t help that I don’t have my bookshelf yet either. My ex’s dad has been busy with work and hasn’t been able to take it off the wall.

If anyone saw my room, they’d feel very uncomfortable.

I go back to school at the tail end of the month, so I really can’t wait to stop lounging at my house. I’ve gained 20 lbs just from sitting at home. So, expect a post telling you about college!

I still haven’t gotten a car even though I have my license. Well, I have a car. It just has a short in the hazard lights. So I have to take it to a shop and wait a couple weeks just for that to go by.  Currently, it’s just sitting in my grandpa’s driveway. Exhausting, I know. Trust me. It’s not like I want to ask people for rides to work and home or to hang out days.

At least my birthday is next month, right? I’ll be turning 20!

-Caitlynne

2 Year Blogiversary!

I know I already had a post come out today but I don’t care.

Honestly, what can I say? Thank you for being the only one to talk to? Thank you for sticking around for 2 years?

First and foremost: Thank you. Thank you for all of your support these past 2 years. I’m still so happy that I have you guys to support me.

I know this summer has been uneventful post wise, but I do have plans for my future, I just have been super busy with work, traveling and my break up.

I can’t announce any new stuff coming up other than school (I’ll post about it later), and I can’t do a room tour because my room is still a mess.

I really just wanted to say thank you for being with me.

And I know some of you may think “She’s been around for 2 years and hasn’t hit 200 yet?”

Listen I’m not a popular person to want to know about, okay? LEAVE ME ALONE ;-;

I do really owe you guys though, so I want to do a giveaway or a Q&A or something. Let me know what I should do!!

I love you all, really.

-Caitie