Changing For The Better.

Changing what you want to do is never really fun. Either you’re changing because you want to or you change because you have to.

This may come as a shock for some

I don’t like my content.

I felt like I’m whiny or trying to get pity points from you guys.

I’m not really a ‘beauty’ or a ‘lifestyle’ person. I really only like games. It’s sad to say, but I don’t feel like my writing abilities are capable of being novels, maybe not even short stories. I love reading, I don’t think I’m a good writer. I love games, though.

So, I guess it’s time for a change.

Since I want to change my content, I’m going to go on a hiatus. Don’t know how long, probably not too long though. I’m going to need time to get things going. Probably a couple weeks- maybe even all of April. The world may never know until I blog next.

For the time being, I will still be on Twitter, so hit me up there! (Shameless self-promo)

The blog won’t be updated until I’m done rebranding everything. I may even fully announce who I am (Like last name levels).

In the meantime, I hope you guys enjoy the archives of what I have posted. I love you. Peace

-C

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Feels Like I’m Butthurt|Life Adventures

How’s it going, everyone? I’ve been in a mood.

MULTIPLE THINGS TO TELL YOU THIS WEEK YALL

So, I’ve been looking for a new job because my hours got cut by a lot, so I’m only getting 8 a week.  I applied to a couple of places and only one got back to me. The store where Gage works. Note: I’ve applied here, got an interview, and was rejected last year. So, here’s to me MAYBE working with kiddos while their parents shop??

Because of this MAYBE job, and considering I don’t drive, I figured “Maybe I should go buy some rollerskates?” I love skating in general so may as well. Well, I bought them and got super excited to use them. Well, I fell on my butt. IT’S BEEN A WHILE OKAY.  Now I have a butt bone bruise. I’m physically and emotionally butthurt.

I signed up to be on a party crew for one of my classes. That means different people I can become friends with! I know I have my real life friends and my blogger friends, but these guys are different. They don’t know about me during high school lol.

My friends and I hadn’t hung out a lot of this month and we all of a sudden had multiple hangouts within a weeks span. We hung out a couple of times already, but Saturday we’re staying at E’s house.  ‘We” consists of S, I (E’s boyfriend), Gage and I. I’m only putting their initials because I don’t know if I have the okay to put their names.

Another thing is that it snowed last night! Gage and I took Bean out to play in the snow and she’s frantically running around the room because she wants to again! It’s so cute, you guys!

I also got these cute flats from Target and E and S hate them so here you go!20180221_1045552015792561.jpg

Well, I better go!

Support me!

Peace

Struggles and Strengths #1

Hey, guys! I would love to introduce you to…

Different Content!!

Now, I’m still doing my Life Adventures and my writing, but I want to do something else…

I want to share with everyone the struggles and strengths of different things. Like this one. This one’s about blogging! Everyone has different S&S, so I’m only going to talk about popular ones, and my own.

So, let’s get on with it!!

Struggles

Some struggles I deal with is pumping out content for you guys. I’m a full-time student with a part-time job with full-time life issues. Sometimes, I’m really not in the mood to rush a post that I need some time writing about.

Another one is the goddamn stats. I WANT to be a full-time blogger. Yes, I want to make money off my posts, but I enjoy what I’m doing while I’m doing it. I don’t want to work a job I despise going to. I want to be with you guys 🙂

And the final issue for me is coming out of the blogging closet. Only my boyfriend, some of my close friends, my parents, and my sister know about my blog. I desperately want to tell others, but I’m terrified of my past. In the beginning of my blog, I ranted about people I didn’t like. Well, almost a year ago, those people found the posts. I don’t want them to tell people what I did in the past because they’re holding a dead grudge.

Strengths

Onto the strengths!

One HUUUGE strength of mine is opening up to people. I am one of those people who cry when they say someone is irritating them. Since I have started blogging, I have been a lot happier. I have just started to talk about my feelings more with my boyfriend, and it feels good to get built up anger off my chest and shoulders. Bottling up your feelings is unhealthy.

Another big strength is my self-confidence/esteem. I feel a lot better about how I am around people. Since I started blogging, my self- image, esteem, confidence, and worth have ALL gone up because I feel more comfortable here. It’s as if I were made to create this blog. I’ve always been a bubbly, funny person. I guess I was kind of made for this 🙂

Well, that’s really all I can think of right now, personally. If you want to tell me yours, write a comment below!

Support me!

Peace out

Gold

As I sit down to write this, I think What could go wrong?

There isn’t a reason why I’m writing this, I just am.

Yet, I feel there is something hidden, deep down.

Deep enough for me to realize that

it’s still there.

That built up hatred is here.

I take a deep breath and sigh.

My fingers are moving furiously,

enough to the point where I exclaim

“Goddamn, this Pokemon gym is hard.”

Life ‘n Stuff

Hey, guys. My life has been uneventful lately. I’ve been avoiding my homework and really only watching youtube videos, which is NOT GOOD AT ALL lol.

I want to get going on my new year’s resolutions because everyone starts theirs in January and they usually fail. So, I figured may as well start it in February to get a better handle of it on my own, rather than the entire new year pressuring me to go above and beyond. I want to build muscle because I am a weakling! Woo! Yaa!! I plan to run, buy some weights, and exercise! Most people give themselves a time period, but I’m not going to limit myself to just one month or something like that.

Another thing I want to do is have a podcast for some spoken blog posts(similar to me talking this as I type it!)

I’ve been toying with the idea of having a post similar to an OOTD, where I just talk about some outfits that I typically wear, but I only wear jeans and t-shirts, so there’s one problem already.

I’ve been working on my WIP a lot and I’m really liking it. which is unusual for me because I always feel neutral to the ideas I have. I hope to talk about it soon, but I’m afraid people will steal my ideas. :/

I hope you all have wonderful days. Get all of your goals done. Enjoy your life for once.

Support my daily struggles!

Peace out

Avoiding My Homework||A Story

Hi, I guess. I’m just avoiding my homework, that’s it. I just don’t feel like doing it right now. I should probably do it pretty soon, but I don’t want to. I’m just very lazy. That’s pretty much it.

Right now, as I type this, I’m listening to music. Ninja Sex Party, or NSP for short. It’s a two-man band that either sings covers of songs or sing about taboo topics (Sex, dicks etc.) THey’re one of my favorite bands.They came to my state in September, but I couldn’t make it due to school. Oh well. THey’ll eventually come back. They have stated multiple times that they love where I live. it’s pretty great.

Right now, I’m waiting for Gage to get out of his class. It ends in a couple of minutes or so, so I gotta type this up faster. Wow, I’m blogging twice in one day. Odds are I’ll schedule this for Wednesday or something lol. If it does go up on Wednesday, WELCOME! I’m typing this up around 4:20pm on Monday! You’ve officially met past Caitlynne!

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You know, I think I’m funny, but I also think I’m not funny. I think this was one of those unfunny moments.

UGH, THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SHORT STORY WHY DID I PUT MY FEELS IN IT!!!!!

The Prophets|| Short Story

Before urbanization existed, there were two small villages not too far from each other. One was the large, prosperous Chen, the other was the smaller, Sonne. Sonne was the type of village that hated anything different from them. They were sheltered, conservative, and angry. Chen was the opposite. They were happy and bewildered at the creativity of life.

The prophet of Chen was a magical being. Filled with wonder, the Prophet wanted to fill their mind with the knowledge of life. The prophet had four magical abilities: Growth, Control, Telekinesis, and Morph. Once Chen learned about their prophet, they gave four children to the magical being so they could have these abilities. As years went on, the prophet aged with the children beside them.

Sonne soon learned about the children and the abilities and murdered all of Chen. The angry village took the land of Chen and combined it with Sonne. the city grew and grew. It became a sheltered, power-hungry community. They felt they were superior to every village nearby. They had the world.

But what they didn’t know was that the five Prophets survived. They were away for the slaughtering. The hid in the village and continued to learn their abilities. No one knew about them. Until the Prophet passed and the children had no one.

They were split up from each other and went to other parts of the village. They were forced to go to school, forced to leave their friends, forced from using the powers.

But a stroke of luck appeared. A baby appeared in the middle of the village, wearing only a black cloth with a name tag around its wrist. The four Prophet found the child and alerted the other. It was their fifth half. The missing prophet.

The death prophet

They were told by the Head Prophet about this one. That on their passing, a baby would appear and become their fifth. The final prophet would bring death to whomever they felt. They would stay young forever as the others aged. The others were taught, but this one already knew what to do.

The five of them ran from their families and hid in the woods. They grew up and raised the fifth together. They would be a team in the end.

The rumor of them running away together spread through town, and people had heard of their powers. Once they were all grown, they decided to go back and have families to continue their bloodlines.

Their powers spread through the generations.

But I bet this is all just a myth though, right?

Why Bloggers Need Niches

They don’t. But it’s very hard without them.

Obviously, I’m going to be talking about niches lol

As a blogger with a (semi?) niche, I really don’t have the motivation to blog. That’s the reason why I have my weekly/semi-weekly Life Adventures(link to latest one). I can talk about my life and what I’m doing currently. It’s a weekly vlog if you think in Youtube terms. I do that so I can grow the motivation to blog about my niche.

Similar to blogging, there are content creators(ie Twitch people, Youtubers, Vimeo(??)). These content creators take what they love and produce content for it. That should be obvious though.

Some of these content creators branch out and either make more channels for their “hobbies” or they strictly upload them to their only channel. For example, a lot of YouTubers have a 2nd/Vlog channel so people can see their daily life and be more personal with their fans.

The thing is though, blogging and creating videos is not the same. 

Blogging are faced with predicaments of being strict with their content (from what I’ve seen).  How often do you see a fashion blogger talk about their mental health? Not that often, unless they have more than one small niche for different followers to read.

It’s like how Markiplier stopped playing video games for a while and focused on the van skits that some of his fans didn’t enjoy. Or how Pewdiepie stopped doing gaming videos altogether.

It’s hard not to follow a niche. That could be a good reason why when I look at my stats, I get sad. (self-deprecation for lyfe yall)

It’s hard to not follow one niche. You just have to be better at what you want to do.

Either way, making it big is hard and you have to be inspiring and focus on your joy rather than your want of fame.

-Peace out

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Writing About Nothing? A rant I guess

Hey, guys. How’s it going? My new year’s resolution to be a better blogger has slacked a little bit, but you know. What can you do? I have to work, go to class, and do my homework. That’s not counting the time I have to clean my room or do my laundry. I really only have a day and a half to where I can sit and do nothing.

Sometimes, I really wish I could fully support myself form the blog so I don’t have to work. But with me slacking, my goal of being a full time, loving what I do, and maybe even getting paid blogging goals will not happen.

Last year, I hit 100 followers. I know some people grow less, but this usually happens in my life. Where on my personal twitter I have 50ish followers. This is why I want to be more social so I can make more friends. Honestly, I’ve been thinking about deleting my personal one. But then my friends would want to follow my blog one and I can’t handle that yet.

GAH I AM A MESS

I need some help ;-;

Peace Out?

Starting Classes Again|| Life Adventures

Hey, all! I’m back with a happy post!

I started classes again and I want to die. It could be worse, though. I have 2 online classes (Cultural Anthropology and Music Appreciation) and 2 physical classes (Editing and Publishing and Mental Health). I am SUPER excited for my classes(less on the anthropology because UGH).

In my editing and publishing class, we actually publish a Literary Journal! Isn’t that exciting! I honestly can’t wait for it to happen.

I know I’ve been lacking in the posting (it took me 3 days to write this post), I guess I’ve been busy, or just lazy. With the new year, I will be implementing a schedule for 3 times a week (depending on whether I can actually do that or not lol). I probably am doing posts like these either every week or every few weeks. I do have things in mind, though.

I hope you guys have fun! Enjoy! Support me!

Peace out